the urge for discovery

the urge for discovery
coincides with an ability to
influence and change the material
world.

how can one be born so totally unaware of his state?
wrong question.
one has no state. no "nature."

we pick our gods and dress them up name them and give them personalities which we change based on our desires - collective agreement - from creationism to evolution to intelligent design.

what if

we live in a world built based on the suffering of others, of their toil and petty compensation.

those who struggle to survive are the ones who are keeping us alive, feeding our habits and bodies.

and this can be because we
are unable to relate to each
other (don't even mention animals and plants)
separated by barriers of history,
language, "culture," religion, fear

everything is a result of circumstances.
every name, "person," is a result as well.
of culture, family, genes
and we give these circumstances
meaning through gods
they can't possibly be random

what if random and purpose are nothing
but creations of our egos as well?
like good and bad. it's not that it's
"random" but it also was not "done"
or created with a motivation. it just ____.

god entering god

barefoot i connect disconnect recollect
drumming bum bum
feeli--

and at once i am bathed in
light
honey
god surrounding god
infinity realizing

god sits on the bed
and here's god come into
the room
god entering god
god writes about godself

coherent incoherence

illusion illusory the mind flowing
river talk write faster shooting go
away flow freedom through me
empty breeze blow
mind everywhere
coherent incoherence

mind mind not crazy dying
goodbye enter God enter Nothing
enter Emptiness leave no entrance
inside and outside the same no
entrance no movement
is
everything and nothing
no poems of longing
is
in this moment
no more places
no longing
is
the realization
of nothing. ness.